Straight From the Big Mind ......

Storms come.... Some come and shake you and Go... Some come and destroy some things and Go... Some come and take every one away and Leave you alone and Go..... Now Standing Alone..... The Storm is On.... But it refuse to take me .... Again and Again...... When ever we feel our clutches are in this world or people around... A Storm comes to take every one away... And To show you that your only Clutch is God.... To Hold On.... Now.... Feeling like the only Survived King after a War... Feeling like the Creator who stood alone for a Recreation ..... Feeling like Me again.... Have to create everything from scratch every time .... While staring at the tomorrow... The Today offers... A lot of pain and pleasures.... A lot of memories and learnings... It is not all over again.... Because restarting is different from starting.... Now the experience is there ...... Thanks to all for these wonderful Ones who gave these experiences...

Losing is Inevitable.... If the other side is very very strong.... What if the other side is God Himself.... Yes.. Losing is Inevitable...  Choiceless.. When I stand all lost...  It reminds me the Masters Words... "In Spirituality those Who will Lose Will Win...." What did I not give ?? I gave all that I have.... Still you left... One by One.... Yes HIS Love is strong...... I did not know i am competing with God.. Yes God himself... I know why you chose HIM over me ...  He is more Charming... He is All Pervading... He is Love of all Love... He is the reason for You and Me... He is the Boss... I am glad that I only lost you to HIM.... I know i was just a caretaker in between... To give some Comfort... To give some Care...  When the Owner returned... I had to return.... Some where i forgot the Creator... The Owner.... But some where still I am sad.. I lost you.... Time to Time HE gives People, Objects, Wealth and many more to take care... And whe

in my memorial of my Relationship I stand with the flowers of my memories and feelings,  and with the fragrance of pain and longing. .... hoping that if there is a chance to be reborn in the same Relationship again... Relationships are like Life Itself... Born and Dead.... Like the Cycle of Life and Death...  It Continues.... Till we learn and realise... While we are in a Relationship... We miss the purpose that is Love... And  we get in to a new one to experience the True Love.. To be in the True Love.. Knowing the Purpose of Life in this Life time is Realization.... Knowing the Purpose of Relationship while In It is Realization... In Life, if the Realization is that "I am God..." In Relationship, it is that "I am Love ...." In Search of Love in others... We are born again and again in the Relationships.. Sometimes the death of a Relationship is accidental... Sometimes it is Natural... Sometimes it is Sudden.... Sometimes with a reason.... So

I don't know... I dont know... I dont know... Where the Love comes from in our Life ??? Where does it disappear to ??? I dont know.... Where did the person who triggered it left to ?? Why did that person leave from our life  ???? Can the same person come back to trigger it again ??? I dont know..... Will that Love ever be triggered again ??? Will that be as pure as it was before  ???? Was that pure love in the first place ??? I dont know.... Should i pray for that to come back ??? Should i put efforts to get it back ??? Or Should i just wait for it to happen again ??? I dont know.... Hey wait... Has it left me ... Is it just hiding behind the fear ??? Will the clouds of fear be cleared ??? If yes when that will be ??? Who will clear it ??? I dont know....... Should we express Love at all ?? If so how much ?? Can true Love ever can be expressed ??? Was it over expressed ??? I dont know .... When did the Love slip in to attachment

Do you remember the first time when you left your Mom's hand and let yourself free... When She holds us we yearn to be free... But When She leaves.... Fear... Uncertainty ... Realisation of all the comfort we had dawns.... A little Fall.... A Small Pain.... A little Worry.... A Mistake.... We run back to her again.... Hoping that never we should leave this hand... Again wanting to be free... False notion that is freedom is outside..... Again fall... Run back...  Life Continues.... But some time She leaves it purposefully for us to learn...  Fall and Learn... Fail and Learn... Do Mistakes and Learn... For..  One day She knows She has to Leave ... Leaving Me Alone.... Multifold is with the Master....  When the connection is there.... We don't realise ....  When the Devotion is there... We don't realise..... When He holds.. It is so Tight and Safe.... We don't realise ....  But When we Leave....  Pain... Misery.... Longing.... Learning.... Life.

Today .... Nobody Came Late.. Nobody Slept in the Class... Nobody did the Home Work... Nobody Cried... Nobody got Hurt... Because My Angels were not there.... Today... Nobody Experienced the Bliss... Nobody Learned anything.... Nobody Cooked... Nobody Ate... Nobody Laughed.... Because My Angels were not there....  Today... Nobody Sang... Nobody visited here... Nobody Drank Water... Nobody looked at the Clock... Nobody Leaned on these Walls... Nobody Used these .... Nobody Sat on the Chair Nobody Celebrated Because my Angels were not there.... Today the nest was Empty.... Because my Angels were not there... The Mother Bird wants the small ones to be Independent... And it chases them away from its comfort when it knows that they are grown enough... But when the nests are empty... It Experiences the pain..... Today the nest was empty... Because my Angels were not there.... With Prayers and Blessings... Let all o

These three fruits and this paper heart..... Has a Story to tell.... Waiting for that someone to hear the beats of this heart....' Waiting for that someone to taste the essence of this Love...' Waiting...  Today is Over...  Sure the clouds may reach me too to rain all the love to me... Waiting .... Before the beats are unbearable let me sleep...Good Night....

The Master once said... Realization may not be always like a thunder bold in one moment and you start knowing everything..... Most of the times it is step by step....  Yes today was one such step of realization ... It feels like a pain of a doctorate student realizing that he forgot to study some very important basic Alphabets..... I realized that I have to go back to basics again... To learn it better and in the right way may be... A cloud is moved away .... My ignorance is visible to me...  What i am teaching ??? What i am Preaching ??? I need to go back to my basics again... Recorrect again... Unlearn again... Relearn again.... But the funny but interesting part is that t he more i feel i don't know anything others feel that i have realized in life more and more.... May be that is the only learning in this world...  That i know nothing....I am nothing..... Once the master said... Life is a journey from Somebody to Nobody to Everybody.... Sometimes The j

I admire... Your ability to hold on...  I admire....  To Hide your feelings... Even when your heart is yearning for it.... You show a lot of Maturity .... May be you are born that way....  I am weak.... Many times i can't hold on to the longing.... I admire...  Your ability to hold on... So that i am not disturbed or moved away from the path.... If I did not write this for you...  Then a great portion of this life time would go waste...  All the true feelings you had would go meaningless... All your longing would never find its destination... Any way I had understood at a every early stage the destination of your longing was not me.... I knew It is for something far away ... far and far away.... far beyond the clouds .... In the Infinite.'... Looks like you got a glimpse of your destination....  That is not me..... When my big mind is feeling happy for it... My small Me in me is melting for this loss.... I understand how much you would have waited for