I did not know I was Competing With God...

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Losing is Inevitable.... If the other side is very very strong....
What if the other side is God Himself....

 Yes.. Losing is Inevitable... 

 Choiceless.. When I stand all lost... 
It reminds me the Masters Words...
"In Spirituality those Who will Lose Will Win...."

 What did I not give ?? I gave all that I have....
Still you left... One by One....
Yes HIS Love is strong......

 I did not know i am competing with God.. Yes God himself...
I know why you chose HIM over me ... 
He is more Charming...
He is All Pervading...
He is Love of all Love...
He is the reason for You and Me...
He is the Boss...

 I am glad that I only lost you to HIM....
I know i was just a caretaker in between...
To give some Comfort...
To give some Care... 
When the Owner returned... I had to return....
Some where i forgot the Creator... The Owner....

 But some where still I am sad.. I lost you....

 Time to Time HE gives People, Objects, Wealth and many more to take care...
And when it is Time.. We have to Return ... We have to Return...

 Painful is this Loss.... Difficult is to keep the Awareness that I am not the Owner...

 This Life is a game of Losing....
Let me Lose all I have before i lose my life....

 Knowing all this... Still I am Sad.. I lost You....
I did not know i was competing with God himself... God himself...

 Sometimes God loses for you... Just to comfort you.. Just to reduce the pain...
But it is a greater Loss for us... 

 So let God win...
So let the Big Mind Win......

 In Our journey to become a Nobody... Lose it All... 

 But somewhere the small mind is still sad... I lost you to HIM..

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