Straight From the Big Mind ......

Today was my Birthday... Spend the whole day physically with my self but every minute with every one of you through Messages... Calls... Wishes.... Praises..... Memories ..... Emotions... Prayers..... Love..... And Finally a Poem too from one of the Angels..It is in Tamil ... Now that all of you have said all I want to say something.... I have been a flower for some of you and some of you have been butterflies.... I want to tell you ... When the butterflies flied away the flower experienced great pain..... New Butterflies are coming and may be more will come .... But I still wait for the same butterflies to return as still some honey is left before the flower falls away.... This flower feels the pain be cause this flower has bloomed for you... Some of You Wished today... Let this flower never fall away... But it will fall one day... It took time for this flower to bloom ... The Sun was evading it ??? May be the Flower was evading the Sun... My master came

Dear Ones... The walls here told me to send you this message that they are missing...You.... Your Sincerity.... Your Tears... Your Playfullness... Your Yelling .... Your Love... Your Smiles... And it is Missing all of You.... Pain.. Uncertainty... Frustration... Life sometimes throw us in to these situations... Like wise in the Prettp... Was it choice or choice-less ??? Not Time even to think ... One after another situations hurled upon... Sometimes from you.... from the team... Sometimes from the space.... Was it all a drama?? Mind was confused... Was it Real ?? For some it was ??? Some refused to sink in... Some refused to give up... Some Cried.. Some Wondered.... Some lost all hope... Someone sometime decided to be Sincere... Someone sometime decided to Change... But the habitual mind continued its play.... Lost its Commitment many times... Decided to Give up not one time... Many times,... But Our Master was committed to touch the bottom o

For some  reason today I missed my family that is the Golden four (Mother, Father,  Brother and Me) Deep inside in one of my levels of my Consciousness my family still remains small and the same.. I remember it was last in the late 2003 or early 2004 we all together.. After 1991 we were all here and there. Due to Financial conditions, lived together in my small house in Palakkad. Father, Mother, Brother and Me few years together in Palakkad and finally once my brother left for Bangalore studies and work we had to live separately. We lived together in between for it was never together again. In between we get few days together and we are back again to our own places.. Sometimes  I miss the Golden Four….. While  being with the family, i used to have this unknown fear whether someone will fight with each other particularly Mother and Father. Deep Inside me wanted family it was always enjoying that comfort, love, togetherness etc.. My b

The Secret Relation of the Relationships  All public comments are here... https://www.facebook.com/notes/prakash-athrayil/the-secret-relation-of-the-relationships/10156612087348298/ Relations are interesting ...  But may be not for everyone.... For me especially it was tough to sustain a relationship......  With my straight forwardness... Look out for Perfection.... With my Roughness... Go getting Attitude... Wanting to prove to myself and World.... Wanting to set everything around me right... Wanting to change every one around me right...  I could drop any relationship at any point of time if things does not go my way... Rather the right way.... But I have and always had ... A Great heart... Loving Heart... A Good Intention... A Great Vision....                 I always wanted to show others what is inside my heart.... And I hoped one day I will be able to do that... Years have passed... And recently I recognized that I have dropped that effort… Int

My Sister left this planet when she was just 27 days in this planet... I may be 2 or 3 years old... Oh My Sister...  This is a letter written long ago in my heart but found its expression today.... It is a special day today .... I wondered always !!!! Why did You leave so early ?? Why did you come to this Planet all the way if it was to leave us so early ?? I know Life is a mystery...  As a child I overheard from a conversation from our family members that  according to my horoscope a girl child cannot be born after me .... Is that why You left ??  Somewhere am i responsible ?? Long time i had this fear... But i am sure i could not have done anything wrong in this life time...  If you were there with us may be I would have been a different person.. May be our family environment had been different.. I don't know...  But yes one thing for sure i have missed all the love you could have given me..  Luckily i studied in a co-education school

What if someone was not born for you ?? It is enough if the Parent in you is born from inside... I always wondered what is to be a parent !!! .. Our Parents used to wait for us till we come home to eat together... Our  Parents used to give all the time for us to take care of us... Our  Parents had given all their earnings for our education and comforts... Our  Parents only slept after we slept and they always woke up before us to get everything ready for us.. Our  Parents spend all their holidays with us to give us the best experience... Our  Parents hid all the sufferings to make us happy, comfortable... Our  Parents had dedicated their life to us - without working for their career, comforts, savings..... Oh are today's parents still the same... I wonder !!! This is what I know .. What i don't know is ... How many days they filled their stomach with water to fill our empty stomachs... How many times they wore the old clothes to buy new clothes for us ... How