Straight From the Big Mind ......

Oh God ... Take me back soon from here .... While staring at the future with a Wonder ... While Life again and again reminding me everything here is not permanent ... While waiting for the losses ahead ... While being with everyone and everything we know we will lose sooner or later ... While seeing the drama of the world ... While observing the conflicts inside and outside Me .... Without my knowledge ... A Prayer Comes .... Oh God ... Take me back soon from here .... It is not from a frustrated, depressed mind ...  When evolving in the Knowledge ... The Maya Unfolds ... It is all the more clear ... There is nothing great to do here .... Grateful that at least I am aware of this time to time .... There is nothing here .... Should go back soon .... Again It is not from a frustrated, depressed mind ...  But an elevated and contented Spirit ... Oh God ... Take me back soon .... With a deep sense of Contentment I feel I am ready to Go ... With a deep sense of Love and Gratitude f...

Now a days ... Rights and Wrongs are not bothering me .... Whether for others or myself.... Yes It is not bothering me much .... May be now I am beyond all rights and wrongs of Life ...  For others and myself.... Am I becoming careless ?? Is it Dispassion ??? Don't Know !!!! I used to get angry and  frustrated for the Wrongs by others .... And I used to blame myself for my Wrongs .... I used to be proud and strong about my Rights .... Did I appreciate others for their right things/actions ??? ... Some time !! Always !!! May be Not .... Because other peoples' rights may be was my wrongs or were not my rights that time ....  May be ... But Yes beyond the Rights and Wrongs of Life ...  I see the True Love ... I see the True Peace ... And that Unchanging Me .... May be I am tired of correcting others and myself .... Oh.... this is Acceptance ....  Let things be ... Let people be ... Let Situations be ... Let me be ... Again this is Right or Wrong don't know .... For...

I was peacefully living my Life ...  Even though sometimes feels monotonous... Still no Complaints ....   Suddenly some one or something comes to my Life ....   And they s park the Lantern of Love ...  I Ignore ... Again they spark .... I tried to Ignore...  But it is already Lit....  And it  starts glowing and the flames are high .. I cannot Ignore anymore .... I start feeling it, floating in it and basking in that Light of the Love the whole day ... Now I am peacefully loving and living my Life .... And one day when it reaches it peak , s uddenly the person or the object moves away from me  .... Frustrating ... Sad ... Sometimes I blow off the light myself .... And when I start  Blaming ... Complaining ...  They blow off the light themselves  .... Now I am still living my Life not  peaceful or Loving any more ...  Hatred ...  Painful ..  Many people and many objects come to my Life .... To bring the Light...

Again and Again Life is reminding me ... That there is nothing in this World ... It is all Futile .... There is nothing here ... Frictions between the Minds, Arguments between the Intellects, Clashes between the Egos  ..... Contradicting Thoughts ...  Conflicting Feelings ... Divided Paths ... What is there here in the World ??? I don't know .... What a Drama !!! What an Action !!! What an Actor !!! But all are futile !!! When I will be out of all these ?? When the Frictions are Boiling ... I Cry .... When the Concepts are Breaking ... I Cry .... When the Clashes are Hurting .... I Cry ... One side of me is Crying with Pain ...  But When something makes me feel Intense ... something makes me feel sad .... And I contain it ... And when I go through it ... And when I grow through it .... And ... Aho ... I also experience the Unconditional Love ....  When one side of me is Crying with Pain , the other side of me is Crying in Love  !!! For these Realisations that ma...

I am where I should be ... You are were you should be ... Many times in Life we think ... If that would have happened I would have been else where .... If this would have happened my Life could have been different ... And many times in Life we blame the  People, Situations, God and our own Fate .... If I am where I want to be ... I call it Luck ... If I am not where I want to be... then I call it bad luck ... But I tell you that you are lucky that is why you are where you are ... In spite of being the best in the class when I was unable to continue my studies... When I could not chose or pursue a career for long time in my Life ... I also blamed ... I also felt unlucky .. Oh I should have been somewhere else .... I used to think ... If I had more money ...  If I had those skills .... I could have done this .... Why God did not bless me with that !!?? Also I thought If that person had just this one more quality He/She would have been somewhere else in Life ... Always I see some...

When I started my Life ...   When I was a Junior ...  I was very humble ...   I was always available ... I had no expectations ... I was not waiting for any one to respect me ... I was not waiting for any one's appreciation ... I was  not worried what other people thinking about me ... I was free ... I was natural ... I was heartful ... Whether in my Life or in my Organization ... When i started... When I was Junior ... I was happy ... I was full of Love .... By age I became more Intelligent .. By time I became more Experienced ... But somewhere I lost my Innocence ...  And when I became a Senior ...   My behaviours changed... A Load of Expectations came how people should treat me ... I was only available for people who respect me ... I chose stages where I was appreciated ... I started demanding respect ....  I started demanding honors ... I became totally Unnatural ... And I created a bubble around me and lived in that day and night .....