Straight From the Big Mind ......

Again and Again Life is reminding me ... That there is nothing in this World ... It is all Futile .... There is nothing here ... Frictions between the Minds, Arguments between the Intellects, Clashes between the Egos  ..... Contradicting Thoughts ...  Conflicting Feelings ... Divided Paths ... What is there here in the World ??? I don't know .... What a Drama !!! What an Action !!! What an Actor !!! But all are futile !!! When I will be out of all these ?? When the Frictions are Boiling ... I Cry .... When the Concepts are Breaking ... I Cry .... When the Clashes are Hurting .... I Cry ... One side of me is Crying with Pain ...  But When something makes me feel Intense ... something makes me feel sad .... And I contain it ... And when I go through it ... And when I grow through it .... And ... Aho ... I also experience the Unconditional Love ....  When one side of me is Crying with Pain , the other side of me is Crying in Love  !!! For these Realisations that make me spell bound ..

I am where I should be ... You are were you should be ... Many times in Life we think ... If that would have happened I would have been else where .... If this would have happened my Life could have been different ... And many times in Life we blame the  People, Situations, God and our own Fate .... If I am where I want to be ... I call it Luck ... If I am not where I want to be... then I call it bad luck ... But I tell you that you are lucky that is why you are where you are ... In spite of being the best in the class when I was unable to continue my studies... When I could not chose or pursue a career for long time in my Life ... I also blamed ... I also felt unlucky .. Oh I should have been somewhere else .... I used to think ... If I had more money ...  If I had those skills .... I could have done this .... Why God did not bless me with that !!?? Also I thought If that person had just this one more quality He/She would have been somewhere else in Life ... Always I see something is

When I started my Life ...   When I was a Junior ...  I was very humble ...   I was always available ... I had no expectations ... I was not waiting for any one to respect me ... I was not waiting for any one's appreciation ... I was  not worried what other people thinking about me ... I was free ... I was natural ... I was heartful ... Whether in my Life or in my Organization ... When i started... When I was Junior ... I was happy ... I was full of Love .... By age I became more Intelligent .. By time I became more Experienced ... But somewhere I lost my Innocence ...  And when I became a Senior ...   My behaviours changed... A Load of Expectations came how people should treat me ... I was only available for people who respect me ... I chose stages where I was appreciated ... I started demanding respect ....  I started demanding honors ... I became totally Unnatural ... And I created a bubble around me and lived in that day and night ... Even with my near and dear Ones.... Maintai