Straight From the Big Mind ......

By the time I learned to Live, the Journey is Over... Everytime I thought I have learned it and thought now I can manage it .... Situations Changed... Place Changed ... People Changed .... Changing hundreds of Locations... Changing thousands of People ... Changing a Millions of Situations.... My Journey Continues...  Only to Learn ??? Was all these learning in vain ?? Where will I use it ?? In the first place why I had to learn all these ?? Oh No...  I have not only learned ... While learning ... I have also made the difficult paths better and easy to walk ... I have also created new paths on the way to walk  ... But only for others to walk !!!! I cannot go back ... I don't need to go back .... It is foolish to go back just to walk the path again because i made it ... Oh... All the learnings .. .. All the Skills i acquired ...  All the experiences I had..  A ll the paths I make.... They are only for Others.... While my Selfish mind was little Sad.. My ...

A Sorry which is pending for long time .... To My Teacher ...  Oh Teacher ... I am Sorry ... On a Saturday it was a special class.  Vacation from the Uniforms. V acation from the usual school pressures.  Everyone was colourful and special as expected. Particularly the girls in our class. It is only these days they get to wear special dresses.  So they are happy, and boys too are happy to see them special.   Everyone was in a Relaxed Mood... Some of us always went early to the School to p lay cricket in that little time before time. That day I scored few runs. Was e xcited but had to stop batting and was forced to enter the classroom as the teacher came on time.   The class started and the teacher was in a lighter mood.  Teacher asked hope all of you looking forward for the class.. From nowhere i replied "Boring Teacher".  It was a question on a lighter note and i believed my answer too was in a lighter note.   Suddenly tea...

That's not Me.. That's not Me.... A Million times I can say.... That's not Me... That's not Me... The One who got Angry with You... The One who was Rude with You... The One who was not Kind to You... The One who was Jealous with You... The One who did not Care for You... That's not Me... That's not Me... And  That's not You... That's not You... The One who Judged Me.. The One who Hurt Me... The One who Mistrust Me.. The One who Hate Me... The One who Disliked Me... Knowing this we come back to each other again and again... A Million times.... For us to Care, Share, Learn and Love.. Together... When people told me again and again... That's You... That's You.... I got confused and went in search of that person.... I never could find...I never could see...  I pleaded them... When you see that person again please take me to Him.... Waited for Years and may be Life Times... Could not find.... But Today I met the other person...  My Master has taken me...

They say I am a Teacher... Ha... Ha.. They say I am a Teacher...  I wonder !!! Am I teaching ?? .... Are they Learning ?? I don't know about the students ... But one thing is sure that Me, the Teacher is only Learning .... So Who is Teaching ??? Every Class is a gift for me to Learn .... Grateful to my Students ...  Because of them I get an opportunity to learn ... Every day .... Some lessons are learnt ... Some are very hard to learn ... Some I don't know how to learn ?? .... Whether the Student learns or not !!! Until the teacher has learned all the lessons the Teaching Continues..... So Who is Teaching !!!! What if the Student in me fade away ??? Oh Master ... What if there is no one to learn ???   Including Me..... Let the Student in Me never die away ...   May be this is my Wish..... While Teaching in a Class... Oh Sorry... While Learning in a Class...  Let My breath halt for ever... Let My Life merge in to HIS Abode.... Let all the Less...

Every time I call my Mother She will share some or the other Prayers she offered for Me and my Family... Sometimes after I shared my difficulties She Prayed... Many times before even I shared She have already Prayed...  For her there is only one purpose of her Life...   To take care of her Family ....  Many times I have regretted I was too Selfish to follow my Purpose of my Life..  Many times I wondered !!! If I am the only Purpose of her Life... Why She was not my only Purpose of My Life...  May be she brought me up to be more Intelligent... May be She allowed to grow more than her... If i found that my Purpose of Life is more than my immediate Family... Why She did not find it ?? Or Was that her Purpose ??  The Life Time she spend on me... The Sacrifices She made for Me.. The Prayers She is still offering for Me... Unknowingly Did I deny that chance for her to find her Purpose in Life ??? Many times I console myself that atleast I was instrumental in...

Running the Race of Life I remain Who I Am ....  When I look at people around me who are more handsome, who are more intelligent or who are more powerful or with any other qualities ... I feel Oh I am not like them or I feel I want to be like that .... Wanting to be Some one else and Something else, m ost of my Life time is already gone.... And I remain where I am.... By running the race I acquired some things what i wanted ... some are work in progress... some may not come to me... And one day I will be gone... Running the race again... I find that ... There are many more Intelligent people a head...      There are many more Handsome people a head... There are many more Rich people a head.... And I remain where I am... Today I realise the race never ends.... While those who feel Ugly are trying to hide it and make it up..... the Handsome ones are struggling to be Acknowledged... While the Poor Ones are starving to be Rich .... The Rich ones are striving to show...

I Stand Alone ..... Yes.. Many Times In Our Life We feel that We Stand Alone... Oh Dear Ones .... Are you also Standing Alone !!! Is it true ?? Beyond a point a Life Partner cannot come ... No Relatives can come... No Friends can come...  You Stand Alone.... Anyway if I came Alone to this Planet !! Anyway if I am going Alone !! Is it also good to Stand Alone while I am here ??? While everyone is around Me... While everything is there around Me... Sometimes Why I still Stand Alone ??? If My Master is there always with Me... If all the Gods are there always with Me... Why sometimes I am Standing Alone ??? After asking the Questions a few times .... A moment of shift happened in me from the Question to a Wonder ... Suddenly.. I saw everyone was there with Me... I saw everything was there for Me.... Curiously  I looked back to see who was standing Alone ??? I saw My Poor Ego still Standing there Alone.... Oh ...   Having everything in Life... We can still Stand Alone... ...

For Unk nown reasons some one Like & Love Me ... And for Unknown reasons some one Hate Me .... While it is a blessing to be loved by many, It is painful to know that you are hated even by a single being in the Planet ........ When I am Loved... I take it for Granted.... But When I am hated for no reason !!! Questions ??  Why ??? Puzzled and Confused..... When tears fall down my Eyes... The Bell rang in My Inner Doors  of my Awareness... ... With pain and anguish when I opened the doors  There was a letter on my door steps ..... Oh My Child.... Hate chases you beyond Life Times... And Love comes to you beyond Life Times... What is known is Little...  Unknown is Infinity.... With Love, Always Your Own  KARMA Reading the Letter again and again when I walked to my Self... I realized ... I am looking for answers for all that is happening in my life from the current actions / events / people ... And the beautiful part of it is that I did not know that was fro...

In Loving Memories...(For our Dear Lai Dinh) Accidentally Yesterday I visited the restaurant first you took me and Rohit for his farewell Dinner in Vietnam ...  Never thought i would be writing a Farewell Note for you so soon... For many days I wanted to say this to you .. But thought now that you are not in this planet what is the point to say ...  But Yesterday i felt you can still hear me... I should say ... Did not want to leave it Incomplete... So this Late Note of Loving Memories for our dear Angel Lai Dinh... In my Life so far there are only two people with whom i was there in their last moments..  One was my Dad... And the next was You... When we heard you had decided to leave this body more or less we all knew that it may happen soon ... It was only Prayers and Love left ... That day Morning i felt the urge to come one last time .. But said to myself no it may be painful.... But later i felt it may not be any way near the pain you went through..  But by even...

Oh My World Why you don't like Me !!! Is it for the Truths I said ?? I s it for the Deeds I did ?? Oh My World Why you don't like Me  !!! I could have done what you Like .... But I may have to come back more Life times... I could have done what you Like ..... But you may have to also come back for more Life Times... But do you remember ???  Our Goal was and is to finish it in this Life Time... So I Did what is Good for You and Me... Oh My World Why you don't like Me  !!! I always wanted the best things for You..   I have sacrificed my Likes for You ... And I have dedicated this Whole Life for You ..... And ..  Oh My World Why you still don't like Me  !!! One side of me always want to do what you Like... But One side of me always want to do what is Correct .... Whether it is for Me or For Others .... In my Life Always the Corrects wins over the Likes.... Yes In my Life if has been always like that ... I have lived this whole Life to ...