Straight From the Big Mind ......

A Silent Journey to a Road-Maker....  All these years I was making the road.... With a hope that I will be able to walk on it ... One Day... And when that Day came... It was declared... that someone else will walk.... Ha.. Ha...  Building an Organization is like bringing up a daughter....  At what ever stage you get it ... You have to bring it up from there... Without knowing that one day you have to hand it over... But When you bring up and build you do it as if it is yours forever.... Your Ideas.. Your Passion... Your Loyalty... Your Dreams.... I too... somewhere got caught up in this.... But Realized only when it was time to hand over.... In Handing Over of a daughter at least you prepare... find a suitable person... The transition is smooth... the pain is less... With Organization... It can be anytime... anyway.... Time to Learn... Bring up and Build because it yours....With Full Passion.. And when it is time to handover do it as if

Needed Help in H elplessness ..... These days I feel Helplessness... More Often... Is it a symbol of growth ??? Whether it is Personal... Whether it is Professional... Whether in a Feeling... Whether in a Commitment... Before I had not felt ever that i could not do it..... Now is it that I am wakening up to the ground reality ??? Left from the Sky of  High Hopes,  Day Dreaming like a balloon am I coming down ..... Digging in to my Essence.... Digging Deep enough to find the real essence ??? Ego could not admit that it cannot do.... Whether I have to correct myself.. What to correct ?? Who will Guide ???? What about the Helplessness i experience because of others... When got blamed for no reason ??  When had to commit for the teams mistakes... When could not rise upto the expectations... Can I correct them??? If yes... How to ?? Feeling Helpless without frustration is a blessing.... Feeling Helpless with a Smile and Wonder is a blessing... Feeling Helpless and to

Totally Committed to the Feeling and Feeling Committed ... Skillfully... With commitment... To retain that feeling is life......  Where did the feeling came from.... And where did it go.... When it will come back.... Who will bring it back... Is my commitment to the person or the feeling.... Should i wait for the feeling to be back.... If yes, how long.... It comes back.... What if this feeling also leaves me ??? Where is the end ??? What if in the end there is no one to feel for me ???? And there is no one I feel for ??? Is my feeling important??? or their feeling to me.... How will I sense the feeling for me.... What if the feelings are the same from many ??? And What if the feelings are the same for many ??? Should i marry??? What if marry the feeling goes away... and never comes back... Will life after marriage all about commitment ??? Fear of losing Love.... Is this feeling Love??? Is there more to Love ??? Who will tell me ??? Am I right ??? Am I

Clouds are hiding the sun... It is not day but it is day.  It is not night but it is dark.  Moon is missing.  The poor one is searching for light... But I am light...and  you are light... The light is there for others to see... The light never could see itself.... Did the Light ever know that it is so bright... Did the Light ever know that it light up anywhere in no time... Did the Light ever know power of itself.... Did the Light ever know .... That it is there for other's to see... I am Light... and you are Light... In Seva...  I am here to shine for many around me.... In Sadhana.. I am here to bring the glow in everybody around me... In Satsang.. I am here to merge in to everyone around me... And at last as Smile I will spread in to everyone around me... I am Light... and you are Light... On a cloudy day the Light went in a Journey... to find itself ... Clouds are hiding the sun... Moon is missing...  The poor Light is sear

Oh My Near and Dear Ones.... See through Me.... Why is that ?? With some people We are able to "See through them"  to the Infinity... With some they are able to "See through Me".... Realized that the medium is love.... Some wants to just, watch and See.... Some wants to Sail... Take that risk and Sail....  Whether it is Seeing or Sailing... Love is the only medium which can take you to Infinity... If there are walls of hatred/greed/jealousy.... you cannot see through... no body can see through... What happened to me ??? Why am I in the shore and Seeing..... I too Sailed .. Quiet a few boats and even Ships...  All Sunk... There were Ice bergs.. Seen was little Unseen was more... Some times I lost it to Experience... Some times I lost it to Lust.... Some times I lost it to Attachment... Some times I lost it to Immaturity.... Some times I lost to Fear... Some times I lost to Lack of Commitment... Changing the boat may not help if you

Seva:   Where Did it Start in My Life ??? When I used to go all the way to the next street to show the way to the strangers in my childhood ?? When i used to show my answer paper to my friends to copy ?? When I used to spend my nights in hospitals for friends and relatives whenever they needed ?? When Knowingly, Unknowingly guided few people to good heights in life ?? When i had to organize my own part i program in Southern Africa ??? I don't know... But I knew this for sure .. that many times It was cluttered with my ambitions... it got effected with my negative emotions.... It took time to settle down...  Decided not to take up a Job and dedicate my life to the Society...  thought this is the last mile and crossed...  Realized that... I was looking for appreciation from the people... it did not come ... Gave up... thought this is the last mile and crossed...  But then I was looking for atleast an acknowledgment from the people... it did not come ... Crossed t

When God Acknowledged His own Expressions through me... Received the prestigious Acharya Ratnanada Literary Award from Gurudev for this Expression... Harmony - Evolution towards Perfection For Every Tear which fell on this Earth I am accountable... I Cried when i am not in Harmony with myself or the Situations around me... I made others cry when i was not in Harmony with them.... And it is the same with everyone... Wanted to stop before it floods and wipes of everyone....  I worked on correcting others around me.. I worked on correcting Situations around me.. Failed....Tired... Tears of Disharmony continued.. Thanks to my Master.. Thanks to the spiritual practices ..  I Dived Deep inside me...  I t happened .. Lovingly Nature forced it on me ... I found... My Nature is Harmony...  Conflict is only in the surface... I realized... To be in Harmony is my birth right... To be in Harmony is my Goal.... To be in Harmony is my Path.... And

Let us meet never... For I am afraid by meeting it will die off... For I am afraid by speaking it will lose its value... For I am afraid by expressing it will fade away... For I am afraid by seeing each other it will turn to possessiveness.. For I am afraid it will end the wait.... It is painful to say Let us meet never.. Even when I know you have kindled this in me..... Even when I know i may have to lose it some time.... But please... For now let me sing with it.... For now let me dance with it... For now let me merge in it.... For now let me dissolve in it... For now let me wait for it..... It makes me lovingly restless...  It makes me actively silent... it makes me speechlessly happy... It makes me dynamically settled in me..... It makes me painfully sweet... With this sweet pain I request you... please.. let us meet never... Every attempt I fail to meet you.. something in me cries for you.. at the same time something in me intensifies ... How can I e

Volunteer ... I don't know when i became a volunteer .. or have i become one till now.... Volunteering was not easy for many...  It meant to be getting thrown out of the house... One feels this literally when not involved in many decisions at home It meant to be seen like a useless by parents, relatives etc... One feels when not able to contribute time and money to the family... It meant to be depending on others... One feels this when in need for Money, Clothes or for other needs .... It meant to be sailing through many insecurities... One feels this when thinking about the future, old age and bank balance... It meant to be losing many relationships.... One feels when the loved ones distance themselves ... Many Cried and Left.. Few Continued... Few Drowned.. Folks are you experiencing any of this ???  Hold on and Sail through...   A true Volunteer have to Sail through... But when he sails through and survives ... Later Volunteering became easy when... Many