Straight From the Big Mind ......

Is there always a conflict between Idealism and Reality ?? Is there always a conflict between Idealism and Practicality ??? I do not know ..... But one thing I know in there is a conflict between Idealism and My Desires.... I examined the source of my ideals... Some have born with me... Some have been shaped through my experiences in my life... Some have been inspired by many thought leaders.... Some have been inspired by my Master..... My Desires.... It wants to take me in a different direction... It is very tempting... But some thing tells me that this is not the right way.... If this thought would not have come at all... What if i had to realize this very late.. that this was a wrong path... Is it fear of losing ?? Is it lack of skills ??? Why not going behind them... But some thing tells me that this is not the right way.... My Ideals... I have bet my life on these Ideals.. Is it worth it ?? Am i not doing anything for these??? To make it a Reality... Have ...

When I used to see other children wearing new or costly dresses, As a child I used to think If I would had a very rich father or if some day if a rich person comes to me and takes to me to the shop and say buy what you want.  That would have been my dream come true…  I used to always think one day such a person will come … With all my gratitude I remember that my parents as they have done everything possible and more than their capacity to make my life as best and comfortable as possible in this planet.  Still the small mind thought in these ways… Then when I started earning for myself when I knew I can buy what I want these thoughts never used to bother me… That person did come in to my life… Also for some reason when I used to see some of my friends parents I used to think they were such nice parents and I always thought and dreamt of a loving family (now I realize I was expecting better way of expressions...) where there were no fights.. no jealou...