Straight From the Big Mind ......

The Young Blood got in to the streets to do something.... To make a difference.... Threw out everything He had.. to serve... to prove that Goodness will win over this evil Ones.. Days passed.. He was running around for everyone and everything Day and Night....  The Passion for Making a Difference kept him going ... It was thrilling... It was Heroic... Some called him Idiot... Some called him Useless... Some called him Irresponsible.. Some called him Brave... Some Inspired him...Some  Discouraged him... Some called him Great...Some said get him married... He kept going..... But @ his house ..... Mom mostly would cry... Thinking the fate of her son.. Dad mostly would scold... Worrying how His son has become useless.. Friends and Relatives would advice.. convince...and finally gave up... He kept going.... Had to ask money from the parents, siblings.... There was a signboard ...   Go back to Work... Self Respect, Security.. Dependability... Had to te...

Waiting... Life is all about waiting ...  Before I was ... Waiting for my time to come to this planet.. Waiting to my choose my mother and father.. Then when these happened... Was... Waiting in my loving mother's Womb in Bliss.. Waiting to come out to this planet... Then came out crying... Always waited for my mother's presence ... Waited for my Father to come back home ... Waited for my Little Brother to come to this planet soon to play with him.. Waited to grow soon to go to school... To ride the bicycle... While waiting for the 10th std marks... was waiting for a major turn in life... But wait continued...in the bus stand.. in the school gate... for a new friend... Waited for a job... for my first salary... Waited for a soul mate....  Some time felt the waiting were worth it.. Some time it just kept me waiting... Waited for the Knowledge.. Waited for the Truth...I realized that ... Waiting in Body is Discomfort... Waiting in Breath is Feverishnes...

If I cannot get happiness from what i am doing right now.. then forget it... I am not going to find it... I have always been waiting for the happiness to come from the result of whatever i am doing...  What is the guarantee ??? This mind which is not able to happy now how it can be happy then ?? The happiness attached to the result, to the future, to the objects never comes... and never has come... How can I be happy tomorrow??? If I cannot be happy now, now, now ???? Can I be happy with  What i have now... What i am doing now... Who i have around ??? Then Life is done.... That is it...Can I turn every moment to my like... Can I be connected with this moment with what i am doing ?? I waited, waited and waited for years and years together.. for someone to agree with me, appreciate me.. accept me... Waiting remained.. That day never came... I agreed with ... I accepted... I appreciated... And then day after day... It was appreciation, acceptance and inspirat...

I wanted my Devotion to HIM like Meera... I wanted to be in Love with HIM like Radha.... I wanted to be Mad in HIS Presence like Sri Ramakrishna.... I wanted to create of Knowledge and Awareness like Swami Vivekananda... But when I met HIM.... I was afraid to even Speak to HIM... Fear with God ???...  The whole point i came to HIM was to move from Fear to Love... Feeling of Helplessness... But every time when i met HIM... He has made me wait... till I come back to the true self that is LOVE>>> so that i can express the ONE I am.... I became Myself... with all my shortcomings and qualities... HE wants me as I am..  He had and have many Meeras... He has and have many Radhas... But HE wants me as I am... What do I want???... I also wanted ME as I am...Always... He has put me through all these to make ME what I am.. it meant dropping everything.... Drop my Fear...Inhibitions...Judgments.. Positions... and Everything I have.... And HE waited a...

Shop with your whole heart in the Shop of my heart.....    Welcome to My Heart... It was  Ea rlier a highly priced selective shop .. Now revamped to a Free Shopping Mall of Love... You are welcome to shop in my Heart... It is open to all now onwards.. Without a shop keeper.. Without a Price... Take Home Tons and Tons of Love.... From the shop of my heart..... This shop has no security.. but after shopping you feel secured... Background ... In my teenage I always had this concept in my mind that Love can only happen with the opposite sex and it can only happen with one person at a time...This very concept blocked me from Loving anyone.... And also many times even though i felt the longing it slipped in to Attachment sooner or later... I am learning the skill to Be in Love...to be in the Longing... Loving Everyone... But Keeping every Love Personal and at the same time maintaining every love Pure and Universal... Today I don't block my Love to anyone...